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This blog is created to give you a central location to answer any questions you have about my current and upcoming treatments and reactions. It is also created to help me make Lemonade out of the Lemons I have been given, so I will keep this as positive as I can.







Friday, September 30, 2011

One Year Ago Today Part 3

Well it was this time last year that I was filled with more uncertainty than ever. One year ago today was a Thursday, I had an appointment that I was going to in order to "rule out" anything too serious... so we could schedule the removal of the the lump and get on with it... Well... instead I was taken through a Whirlwind of Tests. I was planning on this taking 30-45 minutes, stopping in on my way home from work and getting home in time to set up my Dove Chocolate party for that evening at my house. So after my Ultrasound and Mammogram, when they wanted to take me back for an immediate Biopsy, my positiveness was shaken. It didn't help that after the Mammogram they had me go into a "consult room" instead of just going out to the waiting room, and then I had to wait FOREVER for them to even tell me what was up and that there was something concerning them. Through the biopsy I think the Dr and Nurse was trying to keep the thoughts lighthearted, and it worked to a point, but it just didn't seem to fit in with the procedure to have them talking about their Weekend plans and I am laying there wondering what the results were going to turn out to be, as well as why they can't come up with a less annoying way to take the biopsy without needing to to slam a spring loaded needle into it... I guess it was better than going in for immediate surgery... but still!
I got home and lost myself in Chocolate. It was great that I didn't have to spend the night thinking about the maybe's and the What-if's although the biopsy made me pretty sore, I didn't really have the chance to dwell on it. The waiting begins....


Fast Forward...

Today I am a bit out of sorts, but overall there was nothing "wrong" with the day so I have nothing to complain or worry about. I am looking forward to moving on to the next phase. and I feel a sense of urgency to get there. I know it will happen sooner or later, but Patience has never really been one of my strong points. I will try to contain myself and wait for the next step. I am so happy to have wonderful Family and Friends to keep me positive! I love you all!

When Life gets Tough... Feed it Chocolate... Works for me! :)

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

One year ago today: Part 2

One year ago today I checked in at my OB/GYN to have my lump checked out. For some people this may not be that big of a deal, but for me, I rarely, if ever, went into my doctor for anything besides my Once Yearly visits and the scheduled visits while Pregnant. SO actually getting myself into the Doctor was a real deal. Between the time that I set my appointment and the time that I went in I had pretty much convinced myself even more that they were just going to laugh me out of the office for being silly and stressing out over nothing. I met with the NP and she told me not to show or tell her where I had found the lump so that she could try to find it on her own. (So that she wouldn't miss something that I didn't feel if she felt it) Well... She picked up on it almost immediately. It was large enough, that I could not only feel it, but could also see it by then, but I had been checking it for quite a while so I was pretty familiar with it. She couldn't see it well at first, but had no problems finding it. The visit was fairly quick and I was sent away with orders to get in for a Mammogram and Ultrasound, and I was also given the contact information of a surgeon. This was so that if it was a cyst then I could have it quickly removed. I convinced myself that this is exactly what would be happening and I was annoyed with needing to go through the "red tape" of getting there... but knew that I needed to go through the motions.

Fast forward...

Today I met with my Plastic Surgeon and once again it was time for more stitches. Today was an Eight stitch day. But it made me feel better that he removed all but one of the prior stitches and hooked me up with a fresh new set. The Radiation is really effecting my skin's ability to heal. My non-radiated side is nearly healed up and I am hopeful that I will soon be clear of any issues there. But the right side has a couple stubborn holes that are refusing to heal up. We'll see how it goes!

Monday, September 26, 2011

One Year Ago Today...

This will be the beginning of a series of posts as I am coming to my One Year Anniversaries.

One year ago today I finally made the decision (with a little nudge from my Hubby) to admit that I needed to go to the doctor because of a lump that I had found in my Right breast. I had found it in August, but I didn't want to believe that it was really an issue. I tried to convince myself that there was nothing to worry about. I tried to tell myself that it would go away soon. But it had been way to long and it wasn't going away, instead it was getting bigger. I was absolutely terrified that it could be Cancer, but at the same time I had other family members who had had cysts so I tried to convince myself that it was probably the same, so one year ago today I called and made the ever important phone call to make an appointment with my Doctor to get it checked out...

And so it begins.....


Fast forward...
A year later, my stitches are healing, even though I continue to get at least 3-8 stitches each Wednesday. I am feeling better. I am definitely not back to normal. But I am getting closer. According to my husband I may never be normal, but then again I may not have been normal to begin with. I am just hoping that eventually I get to be as normal as I was in July of 2010... Not a care in the world, unless you count the usual cares of Work and Family. :)